Catch up

I know, I know, long time no blog. It’s a very sad state of affairs. All I can say is: I’ve been busy, and I think that writing assignments almost every day of the week saps my enthusiasm for writing. I’m always blogging, so many posts are backlogged in my mind, half-written on my computer or jammed into my drafts box here. I guess for a long time I have lacked the time, energy and ability to gather my thoughts sufficiently to put together a readable post. Fingers crossed for this one then;)

So catch up news:

HEALTH – I’ve had a few flare ups, but generally I think I am doing well. I had 2-3 weeks there where I had boundless energy and motivation and was charging through to-do lists like nobodies business! I was exhausted every evening and a bit foggy-brained but it felt really good to be getting things done and to be able to exercise a bit more too. This is the first winter that I’ve been without antibiotics (so far so good) and able to fight off viruses on my own steam, though it does exhaust me and take a lot longer. I’m at the tail end of a symptom flare right now and, as usual, it was awful and made me act like a grumpy crazy person but I think the worst is over. The pain was bad, I think the cold weather exacerbates it and the fatigue just goes on and on. The most frustrating part is that i think it was brought on purely by having a busy day at work and not drinking enough water. (oh and probably drinking too much coffee and not resting and trying to do too much but I’ll never admit to that;)

STOOPID MOMENTS- At the time it’s humiliating, saddening and sometimes frightening, but looking back I can laugh at some of the things that happen in the midst of a fibro fog. My short-term memory has been so bad lately that I forget what I’m saying mid-sentence, forget my pin number, can’t string words together coherently and have to sometimes look at what I’m holding in my hand because I’ve just plain forgot what’s there. Recently I got into the car, reached to put my seatbelt on but stopped to say something to the kids in the back. When I’d finished talking to them I’d forgotten what was held in my hand (seatbelt) and assumed it was the car keys. So yes, I tried to start the car by putting my seatbelt into the ignition. It all happened in a split second and as soon as I looked down, I realised but I was actually a bit scared to drive anywhere after that! I’ve also tried to send a txt msg on the tv remote and said some very strange things to the kids which I don’t remember but they are sure to and will remind me regularly for the rest of my life. I know, these things happen to everyone but in a fibro fog, they happen all-day-long. Some days are just one long struggle to remember the right words, form sentences and remember what room I’m in, why, what the hell I have in my hand and what I intended to do with it.

STUDY- Studying is very difficult during flares when my brain turns to mush and moves with the speed of an elderly sloth, so I try to get ahead while I’m feeling well. I’ve finished my compulsory and moved on to my elective subjects – though all 6 of these are compulsory, so I don’t understand why they arrive with a huge ELECTIVE sticker smacked on the front. It’s not like I can elect not to do them and throw them out the window, it’s as though that sticker is there just to taunt me. My current subject is ‘Electronic Learning Resources’ which disappointingly just turned out to mean ‘Computers’. Fortunately though, I can cruise the interwebs and blog to my little hearts content by classifying it  as important background research and experience for my subject:) For how can I teach the poor little children about googling and blogging if it’s not crisp and fresh in my mind?

CHILDREN – the girls are fine, had a few of the typical winter germy things but otherwise well. Lil performed in CREATIVE GENERATION, STATE SCHOOLS ONSTAGE recently which was an amazing experience and gave her a boost of confidence. It will be aired on tv next month:) She is currently rehearsing for her school talent show, where she is performing a Justin Bieber utter utter piss take. It’s adorable:) Titchy is bored with school and wants to hurry up and get a real life (which apparently means grow up, go to university, get a job and have lots of pets) I’m willing to swap with her recently-turned-eight lifestyle, I can dig a bit more lego and a bit less housework in my daily routine.

TRUSTY – mind your business! Ok, trusty is all right I think, overworked as usual but he does it to himself. He’s off to Africa to look at Giraffes for me (oh and some pesky thing to do with work) So I’ll not see him for weeks and weeks. Hey, don’t they have some nice Diamonds in South Africa………? ;)

ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING ELSE – ok, I’ve lost my train of thought so I might wrap it up there, I really hope to write again soon and will endeavour to get ahead in my study etc etc so that I can do it guilt free.

M:)

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